The Cookies are Yelling, “Eat me! Eat me!”
I am sitting in the kitchen, on the computer, and less than 10 steps away are the “left over” cookies I made yesterday. They are yelling out, “Eat me! You know you want to!” It’s the makings of a REALLY BAD after school special. Like the one where Zach dates the “big girl” and his friends make fun of him, then he dates her anyway because the moral of the story is that size doesn’t matter, only (unexplainably) he is dating Kelly in the next episode. Ex-”Saved By the Bell” fans know what I am talking about. I just got done working out, and I passed them by about twenty times in between giving the girls a bath, getting them ready for bed, and walking to the computer. At one point, I had the cookie jar lid open, and I had one in my hand. All of the sudden, I thought, “What the hell am I doing? I just busted my butt for the past forty-five minutes, and for what? I will NOT eat these!” But, it’s like putting a scotch infront of an alcoholic and telling them, “Don’t drink that!”
HELP ME! They look so good, but I know that I am NOT hungry, and that I ate a not-so-good lunch, I actually skipped dinner because it was more like a lunch-dinner thing. I know you’re not SUPPOSED to do that, but I don’t want to eat more than 1,500 calories a day….I am at 1,497. DAMN! Stupid Perkins. Stupid wrap. Stupid french fries (even though I only ate half a small order, I STILL ate them, you know?). Stupid cookies. Stupid weight.
Yum! Water. SO SATISFYING RIGHT NOW…..NOT! At least it will fill me up.
So, I am blogging to keep my hands busy. Next is homework. Next is knitting. Next is a shower. Anything to keep myself busy. Heck, I may even work out again.
Okay, I’m not THAT desparate. Grin.
Will it always be like this? What if I lose the weight and always am addicted to food? Will I have to excersize EVERY NIGHT for the rest of my life? What happens when I am like 80 years old? How in the world will I weight lift then? How will I do jumping jacks or stomach crunches? GASP! What if I am stuck in a nursing home with no hottie orderly guys? Or worse, WHAT IF I AM STUCK IN A NURSING HOME WITH HOTTIE ORDERLY GUYS AND I AM A FAT MESS WITHOUT A DIME TO LURE THEM INTO MARRYING ME????? So much to worry about. LOL.. 
Tomorrow is REALLY busy. I have to rush home from work to get the girls from the sitter, get them home and my oldest into her gymanstic uniform (her first class, she is SO excited!), go to her class, rush home, get dinner on the table (which will be over an hour late because of her class), get the girls in bed, work out, do homeowork, and go to bed. Seriously, Moms out there, how in the world do you do it?? It is gonna be a real struggle to find something that is healthy to put on the table, for sure.
Hopefully everyone is having a great night! Talk to ya’ll later. Hopefully, not a sob story……
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You have the power over the cookies. You are doing good by finding things to keep you busy. Just think about how good you’ll feel in the morning by not eating them. The sense of accomplishment is far better. You can do it. I have faith in you!
LMAO
You do make me laugh.
Maybe you could freeze the cookies that way you can just pull them out for kids lunches or whatever and not be so tempted by them?
I think it can be too overwhelming to think about the future and all the work it will take to take the weight off and keep it off.
I think the key is just setting small goals and working towards those and meeting them then setting new small goals.
At least that’s whats working for me.
Great job on the workout and for coming on here instead of letting the cookies get ya.
Good luck to you
Lori
YOu will find a calming with everything. It just takes time. Ihave 2 kids witha 3 one on the way. I got to school and I teach. But I someone how manage to find time for it all and still worry about everything too, which bugs the hubby. Take a calming breath and don’t deprive yourself. Next time take one cook and enjoy it but no more. Because deprive will only lead to over eating them later. I hope that helps and stay strong you can do it.
Loved your blog and I have had those same kind of cookies calling me too. And I hate to tell you this but you will have to worry about weight even after you lose it. I made it to my goal weight and I’m struggling now. Struggling to maintain. I think you don’t have to exercise as much to maintain than you do to lose. But, I think as you lose weight you sometimes get that prize at the end of the week and that’s weight loss. A number you can celebrate. A success that makes you want to keep going. But after you lose the weight, there is no number to celebrate anymore. So it can be harder at times I think. But, it’s nothing that can defeat us if we want it bad enough. You just keep fighting those urges. Be bigger than the cookie! Show those cookies whose boss!!!!
Sounds like you had a rough time! I am hoping you managed to stick to your program and I am sending out some good thoughts your way for the future.
One thing I can say has helped me with my over eating is always making sure I have fresh veggies cut up, as well as fruit handy. When I seriously need to eat I just eat that. At first I didnt like the taste of veggies but then I realized that taste is healthy and going to lead to weight loss and feeling good. Maybe a low cal dip too?
I’m rooting for you!!!
Great job on everything you accomplished today. Working out AND skipping out on those cookies. You’re doing so well. You’re going to be the hot girl at the nursing home that every other women will be jealous of….and all the men lining up to get a date. I don’t know how you do it but go forth and enjoy…..